But those words never cease to haunt me
One day you will wake up and not find me
You said those with tears in your eyes
They didn’t mean much to my uncaring soul
But with the grief of a child, I now
remember
I’ve wished for nothing else but what we
had
But I heard you are now happily married
I never knew there weren’t two of you out there
Reaching out for you in others is a mirage
I remember you say tearfully
“I love you but you are hurting me”
How I wish I could even say that to you
As long as I have you in my life
But sadly, I heard you’re now happily
married
You gave me your all and I gave you nothing
I know now it hurts not to be in love with
you
Just like others before her, she’s nothing
like you
I heard you are now happy
Squeezing out a river of your tears from the pillow we shared
How much pain did I cause you? I miserably
ask myself
Where was my selfish heart when tiny drops
of hurt tears
Ran a river down your heart and your love
sailed away
I heard he makes you very happy
Sitting at a corner staring at the pieces of my heart
Broken by those I thought were sexier than
you
My pride is gone but heartache keeps me
company
I am sad but I heard your laughter now
rings out
Can’t believe I sacrificed all you had for me
On the alien altar of uncertain scarlet
women
And now I am paying for my waywardness
I just woke up and realized that you’re
gone
Emeka Amakeze
